My heart is aching. For the past several weeks, Henry, my service dog, has been waking up between 3 and 5am, jumping off the bed and vomiting. He goes straight to my side of the bed, rounds his back and starts heaving. Some mornings he lets out a little whimper, like he’s trying to tell me he has a tummy ache.
The first few times this happened, we thought Henry was suffering the consequences of his late-night visits to the backyard, from which he returns licking his lips and smelling suspiciously of doggy bon-bons. No matter how frequently we clean up back there, he manages to find a poo or two. Naughty Henry. We refrain from any doggy kisses after that.
When Henry started regurgitating every day, I got more concerned. I also noticed that the substance coming out of him was not some horrible fecal matter he was trying to get rid of. It was a yellowish foam. This past week he’s been having these episodes late afternoon as well. Each time he gets sick, his furry, little, black body goes into a strange curve, his ears go back and he looks at me with his big, brown, Chihuahua eyes, like he wants me to take away the misery. I would if I could, dear Henry.
Earlier this week, I took him to the vet, who did some blood tests and a urinalysis. These showed that his protein levels were low. When the vet explained the results, this was what I heard him say: “Well, this could mean several things. It could be Intestinallymphangiectasia, CANCER, inflammatoryboweldisease, CANCER, anabnormalityoftheintestines, CANCER, a chronicforeignbody, CANCER, parasites,hemorrhagicgastroenteritis, or CANCER. Let’s do an x-ray.”
As we looked at the results of the x-ray, I heard the vet say: “I see abnormalities here in the large intestine, which could be CANCER, inflammation or CANCER.” Then he recommended an ultrasound, which will show in greater detail, what is making the intestines look so weird.
As I listened to the vet explain all of this, I flashed back to when we heard the same information about Dixie four years ago in an exam room at the animal specialty hospital. For her it was CANCER. It was Intestinal Adenocarcinoma, and we were told it would kill her within a year. She had three major surgeries and lived beyond the vet’s predictions. She’s in the final phase of her life now, receiving palliative care, but recently bounced back a little. She’s painfully thin, but for today she is comfortable, and that is all we can ask.
Will Henry follow in her footsteps? Dear God, I hope not. There is a big difference between how Dixie and Henry present their illnesses. Dixie is very stoic and always behaves as if she is not ill, even though she’s very thin and weak. Henry, on the other hand, is very demonstrative with his feelings. When his gut is bothering him, he walks very gingerly and freezes. He also whines and speaks with his eyes. He looks at me like he’s about to start talking, and I can tell he wants comfort. Because he’s so little I can pick him up and give him what he wants. But I can’t make his illness go away. We don’t even know yet exactly what his diagnosis is.
I know it doesn’t help for me to sit around worrying and feeling sorry for myself, but I’m scared for Henry and myself. The grief of seeing my animal children suffer throws me into such darkness. Sometimes I wonder if I should even have pets. But then I think about how much joy they bring to our lives. I keep trying to remind myself that Dixie has bounced back numerous times. Henry is going through a rough patch, but like Dixie, he will bounce back. Being able to write about this helps. Thank you for listening.
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Oh, Marty! This is truly awful. I am so sorry you and Henry and Dixie are struggling. I’m there with you, I love you.♡
Thank you. Tomorrow he’ll get the ultrasound. I just want to help him feel better. He looks so sad. Dixie has been stable, which I’m so grateful for. Love you too!
Just read the longer story above…..am so very sorry!
I love you very much, Mom
Oh Martha, I know exactly what you are feeling. Smokey does the same arching his back followed by vomiting what appears to be yellow bile. Then the soulful eyes looking at me to help him. I always blame my husband and accuse him of giving Smokey something he is not allowed to eat. Smokey follows his vomiting by eating the leaves if our pink razzel plant, then vomits bile and leaves before seeming to fell better. Hope Henry is feeling better soon.
Poor Smokey! Henry has been known to eat inappropriate things and they’ve come back up. I wish this were just that, but it was going on for too long. Tomorrow we’ll get the ultrasound and hopefully know more. Not sure when we’ll get the full diagnosis. Fingers crossed and lots of prayers.
My 2 year old granddaughter began vomiting while at our house and cried out “what is happening?” We told her she was vomiting and she then cried out “make it stop!” I think if Smokey or Henry could talk they would be saying the same things.
You’re so right. That is what is eyes are saying.
My Henry! I’m keeping only good thoughts for him. Maybe not cancer, just something inconvenient. Keep your spirit up, that’s what he will want.
Love to both of you.
Thanks Carol. We’re hoping it’s IBD, which we can treat. Just not the other possibility. I want to help him feel better.
((((((((((((((ENORMOUS..but gentle….HUGS TO ALL OF YOU)))))))))))
Thanks Pam. He’s getting his ultrasound as I write this. Poor little guy. He looks so scared. Right after this he gets to go home and eat some breakfast.
Oh, Martha, I didn’t realize Henry was feeling that bad. Gentle hugs to him and you as you take care of Henry. But make you rest up as well so you can care for Henry and Dixie. Hope all goes well with the ultrasound.
😘 Hope Henry & Dixie feel better. As per Henry hoping his diagnostic is treatable. Praying. 🙏 *hugs*
Thank you for your prayers. We’ll get the cytology results today or tomorrow. From that, the surgeon will decide if surgery will help. If it’s lymphoma, he won’t have surgery, just treatment. Best case scenario is benign cysts in stomach and spleen. Worst case is cancer all over the place. We won’t let him suffer. Right now he gets tummy aches, but seems normal much of the time. Thanks again.